`The rest is still unwritten. (:

Thursday, September 11, 2008

I just got back from school. Attended a Leadership briefing. And i only recognized Hisham in the LT. Like okay. Just the two of us in our class. I'm so honored anyway. So this Leadership course seems interesting BUT i don't feel like i'm up for it. Sheesh~
As they say, it's not that we're not capable of it. It's just that we are not familiar with it thus we feel scared, fullstop. Thus they are gonna help us stretch our fullest potential by having this course. Of course, i don't deny that the opportunites that they are giving to us are incredible and once in a lifetime thing. There will be international forums, overseas expeditions, overseas community projects, NYAA gold awards and many more. Imagine me exchanging views with some powerful people here. Hahahaha! Omg. I can't imagine at all sey. Like me, this small and penakut girl who is damn clumsy and sembarang kind of person? Hahahahah! Berangan lah ko eh.
But am i really capable to handle all of those? It's like much more exposure than CSAS. Like CSAS? Everyone knows how much i detest CSAS. Haha! But still, i gotta overcome that fear. A must, in fact sooner or later.
As Mr Edmund told everyone in the LT just now, it's about how we handle our fear. Either we run away from it or we face it. And of course, we can't run away from it FOREVER right. So in order to face it, we have to get used to it. And how do we get used to it? Experiencing more of them in our life. Doesn't it makes sense? Okay good.
Before i could get this, there will be an interview on the 22nd. So leceh sey. But it's okay. Must get used to it right. *winks* If i got through it, i would feel better? If i don't, it would be perfectly fine. Cause i know He has better plans for me.=)

And chop chop, i met Munirah after so long two nights ago. We iftar-ed together at Popeyes. Hahaha! How romantic we were. We faced everything together. From getting lost in the aiport, searching for Royals(which don't exist at all) and eating pathetically on the floor. Hahahahah! Mcm pengemis sey. But nevermind. High class beggers at Changi Airport. Don't play-play hor. =p

Also, yesterday was kekek like hell. Hahaha! Seeing ifah's expression was priceless. I don't think i have to repeat everything right since Atiqah and Azyan had explained the whole idea. Haha! And i know we're downright sweeeeettt! Glad that she likes the dress. Hee!

As i grow up, i realise that there are many paths created for me to choose from. And also, many great opportunities along the way. Am i just one pure lucky girl or did i really work hard for them? I question my own capability alot. Thinking am i really up for it? Is siti nur shahidah able to handle everything? I think let just time tells everything cause i'm still finding myself in this big world. But one thing i really hope, not to regret my own decisions.

Love idah.


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