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Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Yesterday wasn't a good day. My mind just can't stop thinking or daydreaming. Pessimistic and paranoia came up to me. Slowly eating my heart and polluting my mind with all different possibilities. I can't think of anything or anybody to make me laugh and forget everything at that point of time. Where are you exactly when i needed you most? But i guess for now, the more burning question is who exactly do i want to be there for me when i needed her or him the most?

I'm getting crazy with all these stupid minor things. I get irritated very easily nowadays. And i find it more difficult to smile or laugh like before. Dreaming of him out of blue, really does not help either. Shruggs~ Maybe i should start hating him for this? Hmmm.

I just wish that i have really crazy girlfriends who are anti guys. Okay. Maybe not anti guys but just those girls who are not ready for any kind of relationship. Ya know, those kind who are so happy go lucky that they don't care about the real truth about guys yet. Wouldn't it be so cool? Whereby we will be laughing our day out without caring a hoot about anything else. Whereby we would be making a fool out of ourselves without the topic 'guys' in any of our conversation. Whereby we would be so the makcik and kental in the school or what. I find it so cool, ya know.

But then, i guess i chose a life like this. I chose a life to be the me now. And the past really shaped me to become the me now right. I shouldn't regret, i guess. Shoudn't be..

Nevermind. It WILL get better in time! Go go go!

Love idah.


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