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Sunday, April 26, 2009

Actually i don't know what to update since school had been a total bore for me. Sheesh.

And i'm just sad to know how weak i am as a Muslimah. How helpless i feel when i know everything. How i wish i can do something, just anything to help my friends. How lazy i am to even open the Qur'an and understand every single sentence. How i'm not making full use to prepare myself for the afterworld. How stupid and lazy i am to not learn about Islam teachings when i'm born a Muslim. Gosh. It hurts alot..

How on earth am i gonna make a difference to my life? What more to my upcoming students when i start teaching? Will i be able to do so?

All i can hope and wish for now is the door to a person's heart will not be closed for Allah swt. I really really hope those who had gone way too far would come back. I hope light would shine on them like how light has always been shining on me. I'm not saying they are fcuking wrong and i despise them. I'll never despise them for their curiosity. It's just that there are too many signs and happenings in this world that showed Allah swt IS the true one.

Please Allah swt, please give me the strength and courage..

Maafkan lah diriku kerana mencintai dirimu. Hanya Tuhan yang tahu ku sayang kamu.

Love idah.


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