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Thursday, July 2, 2009

Hais. I feel the need to change my handphone number like seriously. I don't wanna be in contact with him. Not even as a friend, yes. Shruggs~ I'm so sorry you.
I know i may seem kinda immature being like this. I'm just so sorry that i'm so freaking weak and fall for you again and again so easily. I'm just a normal human being with a sincere heart. And i think i'm extra sensitive and emotional as compared to normal girls out there. I'm not a saint to be understanding enough. I'm just so weak.. I can't bear the jealousy and pain anymore. I can't bear my heart being broken again from you. It will be toooo much for me to handle. So let me just go away with this nice image of you still in my mind and heart. Don't ruin the nice image i still have of you eventhough i hated you in the past.

Maybe we're just not meant to be together.
Not when i just can't understand why you're acting this way and really appreciate you for who you are. I don't know what's love but i heard it's about letting go of all the expectations. So how can i expect you to be someone you're not? How can i truly love you when i have a certain expectations of you? I'm sure you don't want me to not love you for who you're exactly are right? Hais.
Maybe we're really just not meant to be together..

Anyway push aside this whole thing.
I've got good news! I passed my BTT sey. Hehe! Yeah. I know alot of people would say chicken feet mcnugget lah. But heck, i was feeling damn pressurized the past few days okay. Not extremely happy but just grateful. =) I wanna pass my FTT once too, if possible.

Love idah.


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