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Friday, July 10, 2009

I was so happy today in school. Happy because of the swimming lesson the last night. Well, actually it's very easy to make me happy. But people just don't know that.

But somehow, as the day becomes night, i'm feeling melancholic. Like again. Hais. I know Kinah is so gonna kill me if she reads this. Haha. So that's why i'm not ready to tell anyone my new link except Nabilah. Shruggs~ I don't want people to know how weak and emotional i can be. I don't wanna show my weakness to my friends. I feel like it's a shame to be unable to let go of someone who doesn't love you that much. Please note..that much. I know he does love me in some ways but just not the way it's supposed to be.

I'm so sorry i'm feeling this way again and again and again. I'm just so emotional and weak that at times, i feel like i wanna kill myself. So that my friends won't worry about me anymore. Hais. I wish i could kill this part of me. I wish this part of me is numb forever. I wish i'm a robot or just anyone heartless.

Maybe they are more suited to be together. Maybe they are meant to be together. Then i guess i wish them the best and happiness.

Aduh.
Berikan lah shahidah kekuatan untuk lepaskan si dia.

Love idah.


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