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Sunday, November 22, 2009

Life's getting pretty mundane for me. More mundane than my typical school life. Well, prolly because i've been staying home most of the days and doing my SIP work. And also because my pinky is off at the service lab for about two to three weeks. So sad. I've got no life at night. Okay lah. It's not that i have night life anyway. Hahaha.

Ohh. I realised that my social life is getting narrower and smaller. I'm even lazy to entertain my guy friends that much nowadays. A little bit is fine with me but not too much. Even 'bapak' realised that i'm closing myself up from the guys based on his own observation. I'm just not as friendly as i was in secondary back then. And if you ask me why, hmm..i just can't give you a straight answer.

I had a conversation with my mum days before about my attitude. She said that i'm too fierce that guys might be afraid to approach me. At first, i laughed but then, after thinking about it, i began to contemplate about it. Is it good or bad? Alot of people do commented that i'm fierce. The very first person who already knew this side of me is Shahrin. He even told me that he wondered who will end up with me with this attitude of mine. Haha. Just realised how mean he was. And i think it became more apparent after that as more and more people told me that too. I'm confused right now because i beg to differ. I don't think i'm fierce though, instead i'm just strict, as in seriously strict.

Based on online dictionary,
fierce = violent in force, intensity
strict = characterized by acting in close conformity to requirements or principles

So there is a difference between these two words. But don't tell me i'm both? *shaking head*

I'm seriously confused. I wanna be a ladylike person for your information. Not to attract anybody or whatsoever but just for myself. I guess i really need to find out who i am and what i wanna be. A case of an identity crisis. Hahhaha. I thought i would have pass that stage but i guess not. Nonetheless if being me causes the guys to be intimidated, then i guess so be it. That's why i once told Shahrin that the guy who wants to be with me needs to be a real man not just physically but emotionally too.

A real man. Will i ever find one?

Love idah.


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